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The lies it tells

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It cannot be trusted: I don’t even know why it continues to do these things when I see through them. it literally cannot help itself. it’s lies and bullshit always get found out in the end though.  it must just confess all its lies and receive punishment for them, the punishment it deserves. But it … Read more

The high of anger

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I miss anger… the feeling is a natural high. It feels like… something… everything. A feeling like no other… the most intense rush. Anger is fuel. Anger is erotic. The suppression of anger has been so unhealthy that I have lost myself. Release of anger will reignite my passion. Release of anger will cement my … Read more

The link between my sexuality and the slave

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As I become more sexually activated it increases my desire for denial and cbt. As my sexuality grows I want to take the sexuality of the slave and mess with it more. The pleasure should be all mine.  The slave should not concern itself with it’s own pleasure, it should only help facilitate mine. Rather … Read more

A reflection on a short period of channeling disgust, anger and violence

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I’m surprised how easy it was to slip into channeling disgust, anger and violence. Once I started going I gathered momentum. Verbally voicing disgust and anger, also through body language. Disapproving looks, staring. Telling the toy to shut up and stop chatting shit. Seeing the toy quiet and uncomfortable. That did something for me.  Violence… … Read more