unfiltered thoughts, feelings, fantasies and experiences
As the toy debases itself and does more disgusting things with men it truly becomes more and more disgusting to me. Using it’s mouth on undesirable men and having them cum in its ass and mouth over and over. Truly becoming a dirty cum dump for men. Every time it meets one of these men, … Read more
Recently, over the last few weeks, I have definitely been feeling more uptight. Body tense, jaw clenched without even realising until I notice and then force myself to relax. Clearly something is pent up inside. Something needs to be released. I can’t actually tell if it is anger or sexual frustration… maybe both. I look … Read more
General Observations What I enjoyed What I disliked Conflicts Things to work on Other notes Summary Overall a positive an erotic experience, the first of many such encounters, on a journey of exploration. As long as it can handle it. It claims it wants to be good for me, well we will find out if … Read more
I’m surprised how easy it was to slip into channeling disgust, anger and violence. Once I started going I gathered momentum. Verbally voicing disgust and anger, also through body language. Disapproving looks, staring. Telling the toy to shut up and stop chatting shit. Seeing the toy quiet and uncomfortable. That did something for me. Violence… … Read more
I think the fucked up things I could/ would do are not just limited to physical acts. I do definitely enjoy doing what I’d describe as at least mildly sadistic things already, particularly when it comes to cock and balls. I think this mainly centres around emasculation of my subject. I am interested to see … Read more
I don’t really know what I wouldn’t do given the right circumstances. If I genuinely stopped checking and managing myself internally through the lens of logic and composure