I enjoyed Jan’s trip although I didn’t end up giving it the beatings I’d planned.
It still suffered for me though, and it looked beautiful in doing so.
“No, no, no… ow, ow, ow” haha… it was funny when I told it to say “yes, yes, yes” like it was begging for me and that it was enjoying it.
Having it locked in spikes and teasing it just enough to make it uncomfortable, then painful for it. When it is locked in spikes, I have an overwhelming desire to torture it by arousing it. Touching it in ways that it would love me to if its cock weren’t trapped in spikes. Touching it “nicely” knowing the involuntary reaction from its body will result in pain. All it needs to do is not get turned on and stay soft, but it cannot manage such a thing.
It may get some respite from focusing on the task of going down on me, but after its made me cum, my attention turns back to making it suffer again. Teasing it with my wetness. Knowing how much it wants to put its cock in my wet pussy. Knowing that once upon a time I would have let me fully feel my wetness around its cock, allowing it to bury its cock deep inside me. I could tell it really wanted to experience this again, but I denied it. It shall never again have me in that way because of the things it has done, and that I know allowing it this kind of access is detrimental to its performance and usefulness.
At least it can get some pleasure from me using its mouth for my own pleasure. If it keeps its performance levels to my standards then it can carry on with this service to me. If not then I will withhold this from it also. Then all that will be left is pain and suffering for its disobedience and sins.
Interestingly there was a bit too much familiarity. I allowed it to bathe with me, be physically close to me, to cuddle me in bed which I didn’t last time. Whether or not these are “good” or “bad” things remains to be seen. Does allowing it this closeness inspire it to be more obedient and loyal, or will it actually lead to it thinking it doesn’t have to try as hard to please me?
What I enjoyed:
- Teasing it
- Hurting it
- Smiling, smirking at it
- Bondage with it
- Electric shocking it
- Its reactions to being teased and hurt
- Putting my hand on its neck and the reaction to that
- It going down on me and making me cum
- It creaming my body
- Walking and talking with it
- It cooking for me
- It putting on and taking off my shoes for me
- It keeping me warm in bed
What I didn’t enjoy:
- Burnt eggs
- The time going by so fast
I want to explore more bondage, electric shocks, and fucking with its limits of being fucked in the ass by a machine.