unfiltered thoughts, feelings, fantasies and experiences
Recently, over the last few weeks, I have definitely been feeling more uptight. Body tense, jaw clenched without even realising until I notice and then force myself to relax. Clearly something is pent up inside. Something needs to be released. I can’t actually tell if it is anger or sexual frustration… maybe both. I look … Read more
It cannot be trusted: I don’t even know why it continues to do these things when I see through them. it literally cannot help itself. it’s lies and bullshit always get found out in the end though. it must just confess all its lies and receive punishment for them, the punishment it deserves. But it … Read more
I miss anger… the feeling is a natural high. It feels like… something… everything. A feeling like no other… the most intense rush. Anger is fuel. Anger is erotic. The suppression of anger has been so unhealthy that I have lost myself. Release of anger will reignite my passion. Release of anger will cement my … Read more
I’m surprised how easy it was to slip into channeling disgust, anger and violence. Once I started going I gathered momentum. Verbally voicing disgust and anger, also through body language. Disapproving looks, staring. Telling the toy to shut up and stop chatting shit. Seeing the toy quiet and uncomfortable. That did something for me. Violence… … Read more